Mental Transformation

I honestly feel like I'm just now beginning to live.  I'm not positive how this monumental realization came to me, but after four torturous years of struggling, something finally clicked.  My summer began as another all-or-nothing extravaganza, but somewhere along the way the truth revealed itself to me.  Now I am looking forward to entering this school year as a whole new me; not as someone who has undergone a drastic physical transformation, for the physical can only accompany the mental, but as someone who has finally learned to live.    

One More Time With Feeling

It's rather unnerving how a mere feeling can unexpectedly creep in and completely dominate your every thought.  It began with no concrete evidence, no reason.  An unfounded feeling.  A song on repeat, a new book, a classic drink; I painstakingly collect evidence that confirms my original disposition.

Perpetual butterflies.